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I have long struggled with the
mundane. It has seemed to me, the time spent on
the basic routines of life - eating, doing laundry,
caring for our bodies, cleaning house, cutting
grass, answering mail, paying bills, shopping,
commuting, fixing broken things, deciphering tax
and insurance forms and the like - far outweigh
time spent in ministry. The solution
to the dilemma of finding enough time to carve
out of our frenzied schedule in this complicated,
technological age to be in Gods Presence
and help advance His Kingdom remains a mystery
to me.
I have identified with Martha
and empathized with her as she prepared a meal
for her Lord (Luke 10:38-42). Many times I have
felt her feelings of jealousy and resentment toward
one who seemed to have less responsibility than
I, and hence more time for the Lord.
However, the key words in this story revolve around
Marthas attitude. We are told she was distracted
with much serving, and she approached Jesus and
said, Lord, do you not care that my sister
has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her
to help me (vs. 40). Jesus gently rebuked
her saying Martha, Martha, you are worried
and troubled about many things. But one thing
is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part,
which will not be taken away from her (vs.
41-42). I dont believe Jesus was suggesting
no meal be prepared. Hospitality in the Middle
Eastern culture was of vital importance and Jesus
often participated in meals others prepared for
Him. Rather, He spoke to her heart attitude of
grumbling about the mundane while Mary concentrated
on the spiritual. Martha did not see, as I did
not for many years, the two are not mutually exclusive.
I particularly remember when
our three children were quite young. A powerful
move of the Holy Spirit had begun at our church.
I experienced a mighty renewal of my childhood
faith and wanted to be at church every time the
doors opened. The Sunday Services and Healing
Services, the Bible Studies and Prayer Groups
were always full of the life-giving power of the
Holy Spirit. God was moving, and I didnt
want to hear about it secondhand from my husband
(who was always involved). I wanted to be where
the action was myself. As much as I loved motherhood
(and I did!) and cherished time with our children,
sometimes I felt trapped at home in
the endless round of runny noses, dirty diapers,
settling quarrels, and all the daily work that
goes with motherhood. It was even hard to find
quiet time, with little ones following me around
from dawn til dusk. One memorable Sunday
the children and I finally made it to church after
a series of winter illnesses only to discover
I had nursery duty that week!
There were Sundays (many of
them) when I would be asked once too often, How
did you like the sermon? I couldnt
recall hearing a sermon as I looked for the quarter
that fell under the pew, comforted the child who
dropped it, found the page in the Bible for the
young reader, and tried to keep the youngest from
making faces at people behind us. At such times
I would reach the end of my tether and cry out
to God with Marthas jealousy and resentment,
Lord, dont You care that I have so
much to do while my husband is always having exciting
times with You? Of course, whenever I continued
in this pattern long, I drank the cup of self-pity
to the dregs and became more angry and self-focused.
I would spiral downward and no one would want
to be near me! (Lest I paint the picture too black,
let me quickly add the Lord sent some wonderful
people to help with housework and child care so
I could participate quite regularly in our Tuesday
evening Healing Services and other activities
when possible.)
It was during this time the
Lord first taught me about His Presence in the
midst of the ordinary. It began with a Word my
husband spoke to me at the altar rail one Tuesday
night that made me angry. (Its much harder
to hear from the priest when hes your husband.)
He told me the Lord was calling me to be like
Mary. I said nothing (then!) but I remember erupting
on the inside and wondering if he were speaking
to me out of empathy or unreality! I remember
thinking, With all I have to do, how can
I be like Mary? This certainly was not a
Word from the Lord, or was it? As my flesh settled
down enough for my spirit to be open, the Lord
spoke deeply to my need. He told me I was called
to do the work of Martha with the spirit of Mary.
I knew it was Truth at that moment, but it has
taken years to grasp the depth of it in my heart.
I see now whatever work one
is called to do, no matter how simple or complex,
if God calls us to do it and we do it out of love
for Him as joyfully and completely as we can,
we have ministered unto Him just as surely as
if we were sitting at His Feet, as Mary did. The
smallest task, performed with an obedient and
loving heart, honors Him.
Right now I am in a quiet place
writing this newsletter article. Earlier today
I cantored two Divine Offices with the Sisters
(one of which I did wrong), participated in Morning
Eucharist, talked over a concern with two Community
Members, read my daily Scripture and prayed, especially
for an Oblate undergoing surgery today, did some
editing, and organized details of a household
task. Later I will go through mail, have dinner
with our household (the last evening meal with
one of our Novices heading back to college), do
paperwork, and respond to any issues awaiting
me before going to our Compline Service. Checks
may need to be written, the garage swept, or phone
messages answered. It matters not, each task is
a gift from God, an opportunity to honor Him with
my whole heart. Each endeavor wholly given to
Christ is incarnated with His Presence, a symbol
of His Life and can be a healing balm in the midst
of our fallen world. Thus, each task draws us
deeper into relationship with our Lord and widens
His Work upon earth.
This point was vividly etched
in my spirit as a Sister at All Saints Convent
in Catonsville cleaned the chapel. Every motion
was beautiful, reverent, and quiet, as if the
very act of cleaning were in itself a prayer.
I was deeply touched; Jesus Christ entered an
ordinary task and filled it with His Life. My
spirit was greatly moved by being present. The
routine sameness of laundry comes to mind. Years
ago the Lord called me to pray for each family
member as I folded their laundry. This simple
and yet powerful act drew me into Gods Presence
and kept my heart from being resentful of an otherwise
mundane task. In this way our gracious Lord hallowed
the task of folding laundry and made it redemptive.
I also recall a sad and painful
conversation I had with a woman after I had spoken
to a Christian womens group. She was distraught
because her husband was not a believer and was
hostile toward the large number of Christian activities
that kept her away from home evening after evening.
I asked her what she thought her husband would
like her to do. She said, stay home and
fold his socks! I mentioned it seemed a
simple request, something she could easily do
out of love for Christ and for him. She was horrified
at the thought of curtailing some of her activities
to spend time with him and take care of the mundane.
Doing that simple task with a humble heart could
have demonstrated to her husband Christs
Love and may have led him to conversion.
Toil, the work of the hands
and the sweat of the brow, entered our world when
Adam fell. Jesus Christ was born into this world
and toiled as we do, learning the trade of carpentry.
Day after day he may have hauled lumber and worked
with simple tools to create useful, practical
items to sell. He probably had to deal with difficult
customers, extend credit to those who couldnt
pay or perhaps never would. He participated in
everyday chores, caring for His bodily and temporal
needs, even paying taxes. We know during His short
earthly ministry He was interrupted constantly,
but He used those opportunities redemptively,
teaching and healing the very ones who were pressing
Him. The interruptions became His
Ministry, such as the healing of the woman with
the issue of blood, blind Bartimaeus, and the
conversion of Zacchaeus. He spoke often of mans
work - of grapes and vineyards, fishing, planting,
reaping, and storing in barns. His very Presence
on earth and participation in mans labor
has forever hallowed it. Performed unto Him, the
most routine and tedious task is beautiful. Jesus
never distinguished between tasks. The job of
the devout synagogue leader was no greater than
that of the diligent farmer, nor was the generous
landowner favored over the worker hired at the
eleventh hour. The all-important question was
whether the task was done to the glory of God.
Our lives are not categorized
into sacred and mundane, spiritual and routine.
We are slow of heart to learn that all of life
is sacred, including little things,
the trivial, the tedious.
I have often told our Community Residents (including
children) every job is equally important. When
we have a Retreat, for example, some clean the
Chapel, others scrub toilets, shop for food, work
in the kitchen, mow grass, weed flower beds, prepare
music, care for children, change beds, wash sheets,
wash dishes, and lead the Retreat. Each task is
vital to the whole, bringing blessing and healing
to our guests. Each is sacred when performed in
our love for Christ. It has taken a long time,
but Im finally coming to see that the mundane
things of life are not less important. It is only
our pride that establishes a spiritual priority
of works. Each task is a gift, waiting to
become incarnated by Christ Himself, if only we
joyfully offer it to Him. There is no room for
pride, resentment, jealousy, etc., but rather
a deep humility, a poverty of spirit ready to
be filled by Christ and shared with the world
around us. Lord, let it be so, moment by moment,
task by task. Amen.
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are copyrighted by the Life In Jesus Community
1998.
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